ok yst after i typed tt post i was doing at and was abt patience...its so hard to trust and wait esp since im like such an impatient person... but i know God will do it in His own time and in no less.its just really hard to like keep trying and seeing nothign happening and in fact seeming to get worse. its like i cant be what i need to be. haihz. oh and i changed my post. cos when i was doing praying yst i just felt really hypocritical so i forgave him. i dun think i can forget tho... i will try? but yah. he is forgiven haha... its just. i dunno i think i will get angry again if it happens again. haihz really dunno lah

haihz im qt down today. went to airposrt to study alone in the end and accomplished super little. only like did a maths paper... kept playing solitare on my palm but kept losing!!! so was super frustrated. i wasted 1 and a half hrs playing lah. and only won once :s hiahz.i felt really down in the airport haha. cos i couldnt win the stupid solitare. so dumb. oh wells.feel really down now. i dunno wad to do... isnt it selfish of me if i have everything but yet cannot share it with others? i want to help i really do. but im too weak.